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[center]MY DARKNESS WORLD **PREFACE** “Do you ever feel like a misfit? Everything inside you in dark and twisted Oh, but it is okay to be different Because baby, so am I” I believe that everyone has a different world. There are two worlds I know one is the world of light and one is the dark world. Some people may choose the world of light because it may be comfortable but for me. I will choose to live in the dark world. Some people maybe think the dark world it looks scary and dark but for me it is peaceful and it makes me comfortable to live in this world. I cannot explain to everyone. Which world is a good or bad world. Because Life of people, the experience or anything is different, it is not the same. It is at the point of view of each person that they choose to live in the world. I think my choice in the world of darkness, it may be something that looks different. I think everyone would like this. My difference, it does not mean I am strange. I choose to be in my own safe zone. I just feel the world of light, it was not right for me. When I was in the bright world. I felt that I did not go in (I was strange from these people) Everything in my mind it was dark, not confident in the light world. But in the darkness world. I feel okay in comfortable. Even though it is different, I will never split up. Someone told me, we don’t need to act like everyone else. It is okay that we are different because in this world there are still many different people like us. What about you? What kind of world do you choose? [center] **THE DARKNESS IN MY WORLD.** Darkness, sometimes something that can be hidden with something. The darkness may seem scary. But if it perceived in the dark, it makes us see the light. I believe that if there is no darkness. There is no light as well. Hello! my name is ......... You can call me “Benz” or you can call “Darkness”. I am only one person who wants to live a light world. The world that everyone thinks is happy, but for me, it is not happy. I cannot explain it in worlds. But if you want to know. Why I choose to live in the dark worlds. You try to come into the dark world. Then you will know. My young’s light world Hello again. My name is............... You can call me Benz. I was born on 4 May 1999. Now, I'm 20years old. I am just a little child. Having a warm family. I have four people in my family. My family has my father, my mother, my younger brother and me. I was born in Chonburi province, which is my hometown. My house is a 2 storey house, the largest house in that area. Everyone is jealous of me, that I have a good family that always takes care of me. My family works in private business. My father and mother had many servants at home. Since children, when I attend school there will be a father and a mother who always wait to pick up and send me to the front of the school. When I and my younger brother attended high school. Father and Mother, they chose us to study at Srisuwit School, a private school that is reasonably popular and the fees are reasonable.  My father and mother worked harder, to raise money for me and my brother.  Until we in the family began to talk less. It made me feel that my happiness started to disappear. And this may be the beginning of my own dark world. The beginning of the dark world of my own After my family began to talk less, it made me begin to the introvert, alone not going anywhere And soon after, my father and mother broke up. (It sounds so sad for me) They quarreled a lot, So much that they have to go to jail. It makes me feel the worst in my life. I sit and look at them, Crying alone and quietly. I and my younger brother talk together, we will move to live with my aunt in Suphanburi province. At a new school I can only walk into the school alone, without my father, my mother to send me to school again. But before, I would have to walk smilingly into the school happily. But now, I was looking around the school, then can only just come to mind the new environment that is about to come. Here I look like black sheep, probably because I'm a new kid. I had no friends. No one I know and no one wants to know me. After a long time, I started to adapt. I have friends, teachers, and juniors who love and care more about me. Maybe because at that time I dared to leave my own safe zone. It makes me have people around me that love me. But actually, I know that he is hoping to benefit from me. He may not really love me. When I passed my high school life. I was with myself more, Do something for yourself, look after yourself. Look after the people around me who love me. As I said, I cannot explain to everyone. Which world is a good or bad world. Or what each world is like. Because Life of people, the experience or anything is different, it is not the same. It is at the point of view of each person that they choose to live in the world. Someone asked me, "Why did I choose the world of darkness?" I think my choice in the dark world, probably because of many things. Whether it is a request for family, friends, everything that comes into my life. It's all my turning point. Whether it's thinking or viewpoint that I have to think more, make my heart more active in life. It makes me choose, in my own safe zone. For my safety and comfortable of me. Finally, I want to tell everyone that. *Sometimes I choose to live with darkness and Adjust to the darkness happily.😶 ........................................................................................** Chapters for speaking in subjects "Public speaking" 😶I am different😶 Have you ever felt different? I feel like I am very different from others. Even though I think I'm just a normal person. But I feel like I am a stranger to some . I would like to ask everyone, do you know the words "LGBT" means?   I can't explain, what the words "LGBT" means. But for me I think “LGBT” is a one group of gender to have a different differences, understand each other and love each other more than other groups. Have you ever heard of this word? “Lady Boy, Gay, Bisengual and Tom. There are many words.” Those Is a word that everyone calls for my name, or it is called LGBT others? Do you know what those words means? When you call them, may look fun or joke. But don’t you know how they feel being called like that. They may laugh and smile at you, but their heart may be broken or angry with you. Have you ever wanted to be a normal person? I want to be a normal person because for me and my friends, everywhere I go, everyone will walk out from me. Or when I invited someone to talk with me. They wouldn't talk too because I was born like this. ( It makes me look very bad.) When I was in high school, I applied as one of the candidates as a student council. Many teachers, friends and school students disagreed. Because they didn't like me, that I was born like this, but I tried. I tried everything to become the president. As I hoped. After I became the president of student council I did it, I tried to work hard to help my teachers. I help everyone in the school. So that everyone could not say that I was wrong because seng and I cannot do anything at all. I have done everything so well, and everyone has opened up and accepted me.I began to be accepted to many people, even my father and my mother. Because I have always gotten good grades, and they accepted me and my family said to me. "Whatever you are, I wish you a good person." Finally, what I want to say today is that I want everyone to overlook seng and look at their ability, determination and effort. Among us "LGBT” groups because today's society is beginning to accept more "LGBT” groups. Whether they are Beauty Blogger ,Singer or Teacher and many other professions that everyone gives them the opportunity to be themselves. They can show and use their talents or skills so that everyone can see. Finally, I want to say to the public that, although we are different but we have never been divided because I think we may be different by gender but we all are human. Different seng, does not mean it is funny, weird but we think that we are one of the colors in life that makes them happy, I would like to ask everyone to be open-minded and accept me and everyone “LGBT” other. .....................................................................